Tuesday, 31 January 2012


A BAD DAY... DAMNNNNNNN.....

 life is sucks..
today..got many shit things happened..
why?..i dunno...
im little bit emo today..HATE IT..my honey..plzz dont mad at me k..i knew dat im annoyed u juz now..so sowwy...huhu
I'm sorry, but I may rant a little...I been called mean, emo, and a bunch of other names today and I don't know why...
i hope u could understand me..

im lil bit depressed today..i got a bad dream last nite.
*im cried bcoz of dat dream actually..seems real honey..
plus...i got many task to do..sorry..
so..im not in rite mood honey..
actually..im still not okay..im not okay even i said dat im ok..
u know wut honey...

I just can't take it anymore dear..i feel like everyone seems to make fuckin fun of me..
I just can't stop crying though. I feel awful.I can't even sleep.
I just don't know what to do....you are rite honey.. I'm weak
.

I'm sorry I'm being negitive.
And I'm sorry I'm writing this.

But I need to express myself and this was the only way I could think of.
Once again I'm sorry...I'm just a horrible person who has to cry everytime i got the problems..
I'm sorry.

what i want rite now is..i want u so badly to accompny me...for d rest of my life..i miss u honey..and i want u near me..


p/s: aku merase sgt2 emo nih..izziz SYMPTON2 of insanity? tuan doctor..help me..i nid treatment..MY PRIVATE DOCTOR!HUHU

Sunday, 29 January 2012


i love u with all my heart


perhaps u never know how much i love you..
but..
my love..
My heart beats for you alone.
Hearing your voice brings peace, comfort and a smile to my face at the sheer thought of you.
My heart soars when I am with you. Yes.really i did it.
In your absence, I close my eyes and dream of your close embrace, our fingers intertwined and your soft lips pressed against mine.
Everything about you takes my breath away.
i hope..
one day you'll really see how much you mean to me 
 


I can't say it enough about how much I love you..
i love you beyond words..miles and everything..
i love u truly from my heart...Body, Mind, Heart and Soul ~
With you I am in Tune

p/s: i am not a good poetry..but.olredy tried my best 2 show how much i love u..huhu..i din copy from anywhere..diz is my real feelings toward u..

Thursday, 26 January 2012


if u kill your child..you deserve to die!

i'll hate u if any of u do diss!!

" mommy..
I am only several inches long, but I have all my organs.
when i in ur womb..I love the sound of
your voice. Every time I hear it, I wave my arms and legs. The sound of your heart beat is my favorite lullaby.
You know what Mommy, I'm a girl !!
I hope that makes you happy. I always want
you to be happy. I don't like it when you cry. You sound so sad. It makes me sad too, and I cry with you even though you can't hear me. but mommy..
Why didn't you want me Mommy?
"
 *why dont u gve ur baby a chance like my mama did?

When I heard bout the news..(bayi dibuang dan dibakar)..i relly feel extremely disappointed..Feel mad..Who r u BITCH? r u fuckin maniac or alien.. y u r so heartless? you should never kill something that you made!!
How come u threw ur newborn child like a piece of trash? then..u kill em? do u called ur self as human? where is ur humanity..i cant gve u any title bitches..i cant even calling u as animal*coz I do believe..Animal never do dis to their kids.. i knew coz I hve cats..
How can any of you be so cruel? Did it do anything to you? No. Could it have if it had lived? More then likely but it doesn't mean it deserved to die like that… *why dont u gve ur baby a chance like my mama did?
I Still wondering..How come u kill ur baby?
that baby did nothing wrong other then being FORCED to be birthed from a PIECE OF SHIT! Its horrible..u kill her..so..u r not deserve to live too..i hate u!!! Can you imagine hearing your mothers voice for your little bit of life, coming out only to be held so she could dump you like a rubbish..Then burn u like a trash? Have you felt what it is like to be burned? Like your lungs are on fire and they will burst. it doesn't feel good at all. What did that baby do to deserve such a disgusting demise? she is innocent u know..



if u as the mother doesn’t want the baby i think its tough u had sex and comitted the act so u should live with the consequences afterall the baby didnt ask to be born. although if the women was raped it should be up to them to decide whether they want the baby. REMEMBER - any young women ut there who dont want there baby u cud always put it up for a doption afterall there are thousands of couples longing for a child..
But why do women in this world want to kill a innnocent child, they were not asked to be put on this world. I mean if you don't wanna get pregnate then don't open your legs. its just that easy, so for those women out there that wanna kill there baby im just saying don't because they didn't ask to be on this world with you, you put them here…

so..
if u afraid of losing ur pride..y not u go n abort ur fetus at 1st??y must u wait till she wus born? how cud u kill her after u seen her in diz world? i understand if u make mistakes dat u cannot undo..but..u no nid 2 be dat meany aite? go n hve the abortion, even it is illegal..still i can accept d reason y u do this.(dont get me wrong..i against abortion.)at least..they still in ur womb n unborn aite?
or..after u gve birth..then..u leave ur baby at mosque for example..or in front of somebody house..i still assumed dat..u might love ur child..but u dunno wut shud u do..even u r living in sins..but at least..u not kill em..u still gve her a chance to live..am I rite.?.
gurls..plz listen 2 me..n think ok..
First of all, if you’re not ready to have a baby. Why are you having sex? The best way to avoid a baby is incest. Don’t take an innocent life just because ur newborn baby might takes ur privilege of life.. Remember, next time you have sex think about how lucky you’re to be alive. U shud Thanks to your mom…
Then..
If after u having sex..u got pregnant..u shud be honest 2 ur parents..try ur best effort to tell them..but..if u afraid of ur future..u shud get rid ur fetus before it become a baby rather u throw her like a rubbish or kill her..
But..if u still keeping her in ur womb..then..just raise her up..or gve to someone else..there is many people outside there want babies..i want too!
so please take my advise and don't kill it...put it up for adoption if you don't want it after you had it and seen it.

Don't kill babies, they're a God's blessing.....killing is wrong...there is no such thing as a LEGAL ABORTION/KILLING in God's mind....

p/s: if you dont want a baby...DONT OPEN UR LEGS if you are a girl and if you are a guy KEEP YOUR DICK IN YOUR PANTS!!!




Monday, 23 January 2012



music oh music!

i definitely can say dat..Music plays a HUGE part in my life, Unfortunately, I can't play any instrument...hahaha
*sigh

Even Music isn't the most important thing in my life, but it's up there. Music never helped me get through anything really, but I do enjoy it a lot. *especially when someone dat i love dedicated a song 2 me..

i'll re-repeated it till im vomit..hehe umm..wuts next ya..ok2..I listen to mostly all types of music because I think it is important to have a variety of favorite genres..punk rock.country song..are my top priorities..*I was..influenced by my siblings.. 



 but i listen to some old school rock; indie, jazz..the slow, lovey dovey kind. So why is music important to me? I think it's because music has the power to influence my heart, mind, and soul in ways in which no other outside source can (except for God and His Word, Holy Quran).

I've learning how 2 play guitar wif my own..my master ar internet n book..sometimez, i asked my bro 2 teach me..proudly says dat..i can play hey they delilah song olredy..haha


Saturday, 21 January 2012


LOVE FLOWER VERY MUCH

 setiap kali aku memandang bunga..bibirku pasti tersenyum..setiap kali ku memetik dan mencium harumannya..aku seperti dilamun cinta..setiapkali bunga berada didakapan tanganku..menghiasi rambutku..aku merasakan...akulah bunga itu....aku merasa sangat cantik dan menawan persis sang puteri dari kayangan..*owned by me..

 *i feel great..
since i wus a pretty kid..im so obsessed wif flowers..when i wus small..i m so excited when i see flowers..especially roses..damm..i love dat flowers so bad.n i do think dat..all gurls luv flowers..i bet for dat...*my mom olwez scolded me as i olwez plucked dat roses...then..im cried after dat roses dies..hehehe..bcoz of dat..i hated them...flowers make me cried all time when i saw its die within 3d

When I was in my teens , I'd have agreed that flowers are lame, a waste of money and die in three days. Now that im gettin more matured..being a women, I've developed a much broader appreciation for nature, I have to say that flowers are a true luxury. When I have them in my house or see them in a garden I cannot keep my eyes off of them! And of course, I love the smell. Flowers may not last but they feed the soul when they're alive.am i rite?? bcuz of dat..im so pantang if i saw these beautiful flowers..for sure i wanna smell it..hold it..pluck it..it is so sweet..OMG!i luv them crazily

Personally, I love flowers, they're gorgeous and they make me happy..*i can help myself from smiling when i saw these beautiful flowers..



Friday, 20 January 2012


I LIKE NICE HILL


i love hill..i love wearing pink one.. it make me feel sexy..make me feel great..make me impress.. actually..my best fwen ever asked me 2 listen song of Kellie-Red High Heels_n surprisingly..i luv dat song.much!.*thanks dear
currently, im so addicted with d pink colurs..Omg!I BELIEVE dat they make me feel so great..*sy merasa sgt cntik...n for gurls out there..y not u try ur luck.wearing red one..for sure u look more sexy and attractive..hehehehe